I'm So in Love With You Honey

I just love Brian so much it is ridiculous.
I love it when he is in a playful mood
and when i wake up in the middle of the night to him holding me.
I love that he loves the cats..A LOT.

I've always thought that absolutely everything we share needs to be paid for equally by both of us. Which i still feel that way.
But he has told me no matter what every thing will be ok, because if i need help paying for anything he will do it. And not to worry about not being able to help pay for the wedding as much as he is because i'm in school and can't work as much.

"And even though we aint got money,
I'm so in love with ya honey
Everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the mornin' when I rise,
It brings a tear of joy to my eyes,
an tell me every-thing is gonna be alright"

Our Wedding

Colors: Red white and black
Theme: Dandelion Wishies :)
Location: grandparent's meadow
Time: around 4:30
Caterer: Yvette Hamby
Cake Maker: Stephanie's grandma
Cake: White, probably three tiers..maybe.. red accents, cascading red roses
Invitations: I'm drawing them and then we are going to get them printed.
Dress: Already got it, mom is changing it a little so it's not like every other girl's dress.
Bridesmaid dresses: mom is making them. Knee length, red strapless?, Pretty.
Flowers: red and white roses..and other red and white flowers, TBD.
Bridesmaids: Stephanie (maid of honor), Jami (sister), Lori (one of my best friends), and Sharlyn (another best friend)
Groomsmen: Chris (best man), David (brother), Dennis (close friend), and Jason (close friend)

Still need to:
Get our rings
Decide on food
Decide on wedding favors
Find a florist
Talk to the priest
And many many other things

Out on the town

So it is my friend and bridesmaid Lori's 21st birthday and stephanie and I just got back from her birthday dinner. Brian, already being 23, went to the bars with Lori and her older sister Lindsey.
I'm glad he went. He hasn't gone out to the bars in a long long time i feel like.
Don't get me wrong, i'm pretty excited about that, but I just don't want him to be all anti social because of me.
Which, by the way, is not the case at all. He actually became more social after meeting me, i'm proud to say. But you know what i mean.. stereotypical get engaged and married and have a life together and pretty much only with each other. You drop off the face of the Earth.
But I don't want it to be like that.
I want us to be fun and for people to be happy that we are getting married.
Not think, well there goes ever hanging out with them again.

I think we are doing ok so far.

Mmm! i'm excited for him to get back home tho!!
Only..9 more months and i'll be 21! Lucky!!

So Much to DO!!! god. it annoys me that i just keep looking at the save the date cards that were supposed to already be mailed out. and i think...those need to be mailed... EVERY TIME!!!
Also the photographer questionnaire thingy got all soaked and unreadable because the cats are ass holes and tipped Brian's water all over it. So that was supposed to be mailed out also but it's not because we need to redo it.

I come home and Brian is playing his games....
..... :) .....

I'm just an irritated little ball of stress right now.

Aussi, J'ai besoin d'etudier plus francais...toujours etudie, mais pas assez d'erudition.

..I think that's how your would say that.
"Also, I have to study more French...always studying, but not enough learning."

four years

It has been four years since brian and i first got together. :)

I feel like that is a pretty great accomplishment.

last night we had wine and grapes..and bread, 'cause Brian really likes bread.
I love thinking about all the moments that happened in the beggining of our relationship where i was like..wow..you are great, aren't you?

FUN FACT:

Last night we were talking about when he asked me to be his girlfriend. Four years ago we were watching The Sandlot and eating cookiedough icecream because in a previous conversation we had talked about all the things i like.
So there we were at the fireworks scene (ironic, right?) and we got distracted from the movie of course and then he just asked if I would be his girlfriend.
Great. :)
Other little things about this day:
Grandma's birthday
Friday the 13th
Had just got done playing a basketball game in which I either did terribly or we lost, not sure. But I was really happy 'cause Brian came to the game.

All this time we have been Perfectly happy :) And I am still completely in love.
Lucky.

My Life as I Know it..

..Will probably be exactly the same as it is now, and has been for the past four years, after I'm married.

I will continue to live with Stephanie and Brian (of course) in our perfectly medium apartment.

I will keep going to school at the U of O and visiting our families about every other week.

I will still want to paint all the time.

I will continue to fail at every vow to be clean and organized from here on out.

And I will always greet my cats when I walk into the room.

I am not going to get pregnant and have a baby right away, I will not be driving home to my husband in a big new house every night and I will not stop seeing and hanging out with my friends.

8 Months and Counting

8 Months... when you are living just regular life that seems like quite a while. But when you are going to school, working and planning a wedding, it is dangerously short.
What happens if I don't get everything planned on time? Well.. it doesn't happen. Which especially sucks 'cause I only get one chance to do this.
Where did the last five months go? Because that is how long Brian and I have been engaged. We are no longer new fiances... we are regular, every day fiances.
We have stuff planned..but for some reason it doesn't feel like it.
I hate that I almost feel guilty when I try to just sit and look at wedding stuff.
There is always something rather urgent that I should be doing instead.
Like studying, or cleaning..or making food.

This will definitely be the busiest eight months of my life.