Taken

I'm always paying attention to other peoples marital status now.
I'm constantly looking at their left hands to see if there is a ring.
And then I wonder if they notice mine.
Especially if a guys starts talking or flirting with me. lol, I always make sure it's visible in those situations.
I like people to know that , yes, I have found my true love at only 20 years old.

educational plans...

To change or not to change?
should I change colleges and (kind of) career paths?
or not.
will he be happy to follow me?
..even if we have to go to Portland..
Probably.
two more years to go if I change,
two more years and probably a term or two if i don't.
cheaper or more expensive if i change?
i'm not really sure.
I would love to change schools to an Art Institute.
that would be more expensive though.
Art Institute of some where?
Culinary School?
The U of O?
I hate that money has such an effect on this.
Damned perfect wedding dreams.

Wedding Rings

We got them!!
When I wear mine with my engagement ring it looks like the sun setting on the ocean.
There are 54 tiney-wiennie diamonds. totaling a quarter of a K.
It's like there are two bands wrapping around each other.
It's platinum, like my engagement ring.
I love it!
Brian's is a plain band.
It's 6mm palladium.
I love his as well.
I can't wait until i get to wear it all the time!!

uuuugh
I feel like i don't want to talk to any one right now.. but i know i only have this feeling because i am completely unsatisfied with facebook.
Generally all it does is irritate me and waist my time. I'm not sure why i ever go on there.
On the up side... THAT' S THE WORST PART OF MY DAY!!!!
I woke up with babe and was just extremely happy!!
I'm going to salem today with Lori (bridesmaid and a best friend) and Brittany (i'm a bridesmaid in her wedding)to look at dresses for me and Lori in Brittany's wedding.
I'm really excited! Then after Salem Day we are coming back home and getting ready to go party! YES!
And when we get back from Salem I get to see Brian! :) I just love seeing him.

I'm So in Love With You Honey

I just love Brian so much it is ridiculous.
I love it when he is in a playful mood
and when i wake up in the middle of the night to him holding me.
I love that he loves the cats..A LOT.

I've always thought that absolutely everything we share needs to be paid for equally by both of us. Which i still feel that way.
But he has told me no matter what every thing will be ok, because if i need help paying for anything he will do it. And not to worry about not being able to help pay for the wedding as much as he is because i'm in school and can't work as much.

"And even though we aint got money,
I'm so in love with ya honey
Everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the mornin' when I rise,
It brings a tear of joy to my eyes,
an tell me every-thing is gonna be alright"

Our Wedding

Colors: Red white and black
Theme: Dandelion Wishies :)
Location: grandparent's meadow
Time: around 4:30
Caterer: Yvette Hamby
Cake Maker: Stephanie's grandma
Cake: White, probably three tiers..maybe.. red accents, cascading red roses
Invitations: I'm drawing them and then we are going to get them printed.
Dress: Already got it, mom is changing it a little so it's not like every other girl's dress.
Bridesmaid dresses: mom is making them. Knee length, red strapless?, Pretty.
Flowers: red and white roses..and other red and white flowers, TBD.
Bridesmaids: Stephanie (maid of honor), Jami (sister), Lori (one of my best friends), and Sharlyn (another best friend)
Groomsmen: Chris (best man), David (brother), Dennis (close friend), and Jason (close friend)

Still need to:
Get our rings
Decide on food
Decide on wedding favors
Find a florist
Talk to the priest
And many many other things

Out on the town

So it is my friend and bridesmaid Lori's 21st birthday and stephanie and I just got back from her birthday dinner. Brian, already being 23, went to the bars with Lori and her older sister Lindsey.
I'm glad he went. He hasn't gone out to the bars in a long long time i feel like.
Don't get me wrong, i'm pretty excited about that, but I just don't want him to be all anti social because of me.
Which, by the way, is not the case at all. He actually became more social after meeting me, i'm proud to say. But you know what i mean.. stereotypical get engaged and married and have a life together and pretty much only with each other. You drop off the face of the Earth.
But I don't want it to be like that.
I want us to be fun and for people to be happy that we are getting married.
Not think, well there goes ever hanging out with them again.

I think we are doing ok so far.

Mmm! i'm excited for him to get back home tho!!
Only..9 more months and i'll be 21! Lucky!!

So Much to DO!!! god. it annoys me that i just keep looking at the save the date cards that were supposed to already be mailed out. and i think...those need to be mailed... EVERY TIME!!!
Also the photographer questionnaire thingy got all soaked and unreadable because the cats are ass holes and tipped Brian's water all over it. So that was supposed to be mailed out also but it's not because we need to redo it.

I come home and Brian is playing his games....
..... :) .....

I'm just an irritated little ball of stress right now.

Aussi, J'ai besoin d'etudier plus francais...toujours etudie, mais pas assez d'erudition.

..I think that's how your would say that.
"Also, I have to study more French...always studying, but not enough learning."

four years

It has been four years since brian and i first got together. :)

I feel like that is a pretty great accomplishment.

last night we had wine and grapes..and bread, 'cause Brian really likes bread.
I love thinking about all the moments that happened in the beggining of our relationship where i was like..wow..you are great, aren't you?

FUN FACT:

Last night we were talking about when he asked me to be his girlfriend. Four years ago we were watching The Sandlot and eating cookiedough icecream because in a previous conversation we had talked about all the things i like.
So there we were at the fireworks scene (ironic, right?) and we got distracted from the movie of course and then he just asked if I would be his girlfriend.
Great. :)
Other little things about this day:
Grandma's birthday
Friday the 13th
Had just got done playing a basketball game in which I either did terribly or we lost, not sure. But I was really happy 'cause Brian came to the game.

All this time we have been Perfectly happy :) And I am still completely in love.
Lucky.

My Life as I Know it..

..Will probably be exactly the same as it is now, and has been for the past four years, after I'm married.

I will continue to live with Stephanie and Brian (of course) in our perfectly medium apartment.

I will keep going to school at the U of O and visiting our families about every other week.

I will still want to paint all the time.

I will continue to fail at every vow to be clean and organized from here on out.

And I will always greet my cats when I walk into the room.

I am not going to get pregnant and have a baby right away, I will not be driving home to my husband in a big new house every night and I will not stop seeing and hanging out with my friends.